Demise of our Grandmother

It all happened so sudden that no one would anticipate it.. There are so much to say but yet nothing seems to flow..

We just hope that grandmother find peace in the other world.. Farewell..

Mother’s Day’s Gift

 

This is my 1st Mother’s day gift from Jareth… Feeling blessed… This is what I call simple happiness!

Confession

Sometimes Jareth really drive me nuts over things.. Especially at times when I have only “1 nerve” left and he still tramper on it! This is especially in the following situations:

1. Tantrum throwing when he doesn’t get this way, would start to whine, shout, throw things and even hitting.
2. Bully Didi, step on his hands and snatch toys away from him.
3. Would insist that I take the bottle from him after he has finished drinking.
4. Deliberately do things when I told him not to.
5. Don’t wanna keep his toys after playing, although he promised that he would keep.
6. Don’t wanna bathe, but would not come out after bathing.

There are just so many idiosyncrasies of him that I can’t think of right now. But when he gets to some of the above rituals, it really make me lost my cool. (I did use the cane to whip him on the leg)

There are even times when insane thoughts such as punching him and making him suffer did come to my mind. This is especially so when I am alone with the 2 kids at home. Of course this is just a thought, and I am glad that it never did realised, Jareth is still in one piece and I am still sound! Thank god!

However after executing the corporate punishment, it really pains me… And would apply zambak on him afterwhich..

Sigh..  It’s really not easy to be a mum or even good mum. Although most of the books about parenting would advocate about positive reinforcement, using positive words, refine from corporate punished etc, however when you are in the situation where fire is already burning wildly, all these would just be thrown out of the window!

Or is it because my EQ is not strong enough? Sigh sigh sigh.. Maybe I should be attending some kind of a anger management classes.. Should I? Arggg..