ITP - Day 1

I was struggling to decide if I should be blogging this entry.... My emotions are still very raw with the thoughts of it. With lots of deliberation I decide that it would be beneficial for Mummies knowing this piece of knowledge which was not even highlighted before.

Jareth was hospitalised from the 2nd till the 6th of May 08 for ITP, known as Idiopathic or Immune Thrombocytopenic Purpura. Althought the cause of this is unknown, however given that Jareth just had his MMR jab approximately 3 weeks ago it is of a high possibility that it is due to this vaccination. Reports has also shown that the risk of ITP after MMR jab is estimated to be 1 in 24,000 doses and usually occurs within 6 weeks.

We had spotted red dots and bruises on Jareth's body and some bleeding on this lips on the 2nd of May. Initially we had thought that it was HFMD or Chicken Pox. After my husband was back from work, we immediately rushed down to the PD to verify the cause. None of us had anticipated what the doctor was going to tell us.. Dr. Gong has told us that the red dots are known as Petechias and the bruises were not due to him hurting himself but it was of a spontaneous nature. The initial diagnose would be ITP, however there is still a possibility of something adverse which is Leukaemia. He ordered to get Jareth warded to the hospital immediately to perform a Full Blood Count and to ascertain the cause.    

During the conversation, I just could not believe what I have just heard. I could not even bear to continue listening to what Dr Gong was saying.  Tears starts to welled up my eyes.. wild thoughts keep running thru my head.. thinking if it is because I had not fulfil my duty as a mum that resulted in this.. and how could a healthy and active child can suddenly be ill?? The number of times Jareth fell ill can be even calculated by an hand... Questions after questions keep popping out of my head....

I was just too lost...

It was my husband who got everything going after which.

First night at the hospital was horrendous. The doctors ordered for a needle to be inserted on Jareth's  left hand. Guess every parents can visualised what is going to happen next.. Full of resistance, tears and struggled... My heart just ache... I just wish I was the one going thru all this.. and not a young child like him.... It was about 1 am, and he cried himself to sleep...